Jan 26, 2004
No man is an island
In other words, walay tawo sa Siquijor .. hehe
I am not from Siquijor
And i have a number of friends who are significant to me
My memories with them are fossilized within
That even tides, with its strength
Could never wash them out
Althea...
She is as wonderful and as sweet as her name
Amiable, Beautiful, Charming, Dynamic, Em, Friend....................
The alphabet is not even enough to describe her
I met her through em. She is a future lawyer with the strength of Gabriela Silang. Although underneath her sturdiness lies a meek heart that melts with compassion for people. Her courage sometimes leads her astray but when she is united with Em, she blossoms like the flowers in the spring field.... :D
The equation? Em + Althea = Emalthea :)
Anna Lourd
She's a poor little rich girl
She struggled her way to college.
Her T-shirt was always blue
Not because she had a lot of blue shirt
but because its almost the only shirt she had
Despite her impoverished situation,
Anna Lourd graduated with flying colors
She's the heiress of Mam Villarin (hehehe)
The right hand of Dr. Abraham
The promoter of Parapsychology in Silliman
Now, she's a mother..
The loving wife of Tata the pastor :)
Bigna
...an extraordinary person
Sehr sehr schön
I cant believe she likes the cat story
She laughs heartily with me
I miss the jaunts we had together
Albeit without peter and the x marked by history
Posted at 07:39 pm by klouise
Jan 23, 2004
Thea's right. Blog helps. I cant believe i miss it!
A lot has happened to me lately after the breakup.
I was kneaded, tossed and molded into odd shapes and sizes
That now I am a different person.
Sometimes i cant even recognize me with all the changes that occurred.
I have done some very stupid mistakes
Things which nullify my convictions
Yet every experience is an integral part of the puzzle
The puzzle of life.
Posted at 09:17 pm by klouise
Dec 21, 2003
I am walking on the railroad
without a heart and a soul
like a vagrant on the street
i am begging for peace
my heart is weary
my face is on the floor
i lost my holy mantle
You hide behind the wall
blinded by the princes' charms
when i did not heed your voice
why do i walk with discontenment
though you keep me safe from harm
maybe i should drink from your well
though it's filled with bitterness from hell
as long as i am in youre presence
for i long to see heaven
Posted at 02:16 pm by klouise
Oct 11, 2003
Posted at 09:51 pm by klouise
Oct 6, 2003
Where Art Thou My Friends?
I lost control. My confidence plummeted and i ran out of defenses. There was no one else to call who would understand my situation but em. I could not disclose on my friends when i am in my deepest moment. Otherwise they would reflect on my weakness and doubt my counsels for them.
But it was so embarrassing because i cried. darn i cried. and to a stranger. i never cried in front of my friends, or family or close relatives. Perhaps that made it easier for me to disclose. OH i hope you would not think something bad out of me. I was afraid it would make him hesitant to confide his situation with me, the same fear i had for my friends. Anyhow, i felt better after i called. And big thanks to you em. HOpe i can do the same to you when the need would arise.
It wasnt about the past, not the relationship because i had no regrets. I was hurt because i was suddenly confronted with the truth that now i am alone. Was it a manifestation of my fear of independence as Rollo May pointed it? Whatever it is, i knew i had to go through the normal process of mourning. But i definitely have to move on.
Confront the present.... the exam...
Posted at 08:07 pm by klouise
Oct 5, 2003
Camping Inside The House?
Erna, our helper and my friend, was tasked to cook the canned food as it is. Her creative sense perhaps stimulated her to apply into practice what she has learned in high school. Or was it purely laziness when she cooked d can of chicken afritada on the stove? Jejejejehaiho I told her we're not on camping! What a good dose of laughter!
Posted at 09:51 pm by klouise
Why are you so downcast oh my soul?
Why do you sigh within me?....
Depression is befriending me again. Though i know that God is walking by my side, helping me fight against the pain that besets me. He is so good to me. He is sending His angels to make my burdens light.
Recently, my walking sessions with tita Kit and Tita Babie has helped me channel my depression by giving more importance on helping them face life's adverisities, giving hope & making known the goodness of God. A new internet friend is really helping me gain strength. He is opting for psychiatry, gee how i envy that profession. But psychology is not bad enough :) The good thing is, he has also given up on chasing after women, lifting his future to God. As for me, men..... are .... uh! a pain in the neck. I admit that i need a partner, a God-sent one. How long will i wait? My choices are not good enough and i finally admit to myself that i cannot force anyone to like me. I have to wait for them to do so and then make a choice. hehe. And Val.. according to doki he is garapalan. I am glad he has warned me. Thank you doki...
Tonight, i really have to seriously study.....God bless me...
Posted at 02:05 pm by klouise
Oct 4, 2003
We are made for service
To care for all men
We are made for love
Both time and again
A love that will live through sorrow and pain
A love that will never die with shame
Life can be so lonely
When nobody cares
Life can be so empty
When nobody shares
So if man gives himself
To care for other men
The happiness of life is deep within
Posted at 11:30 pm by klouise
